Cold in the NightThe night is beautiful as I stare at the sky,And it reminds me somehow of your eyes.So I wonder if, wherever you are,You are looking up at these same stars.The snow is cold, but I cannot feel anything;I can only hear the song that the night sings.The full moon’s light falls down just like tears,And, darling, I can almost feel you here.All at once I am desperate, so lost and so coldThough not from winter’s iron-ice hold.I am caressed by winter’s fingers, its frost in my veinsBut I know that this chill is just not the same.I want nothing more than to be lost in this icy hour,To disperse into a million pin-prick
DarknessDarkness surrounds me....I cannot move, cannot see....Where am I?What was that?A movement, swift.Like a whisper, it's gone.What is going on?Last thing I rememberI was fallingI cannot feel my wingsIn fact, I cannot feelI should be sadVanya and the boysThey'll live without meI should be feel enragedMy siblings betrayed meEven went so farAs to damn near hurt my familyAnd yet, I cannot help but not feelIt's like I don't existLike I'm dead...Did I die? Is it even possible?I don't feel deadBut then again, I don't feelI wish she had had the gutsTo just kill me, to end meBut no, she had to torture m
Sadness and SorrowDrops of a buckettears form a cloud;my hands are shakingyour heart is breaking.Rustling of spring leavesrighteous vows of lovesadness and sorrowto the lights aboveChurning bits of ecstasyFighting all the whileOur love is goneNever to be found
InsomniaInsomniaFrom somewhere else at about midnightNights are so quiet over and over againSometimes more, sometimes less homely too quietlyEvery now and then the star-spattered sky appears, but it appears never completeA wonderful view of these stars and the black infinity. I can't avoid it. I don't want toTo fall asleep lying under the star-spattered sky is drop-dead gorgeousWithout any persecution, without any fear and anger 'cause anger blindsThis is where I liveThe silence and the peace, a kinda celestial peaceThoughts circle in the most different directions, as is sometimes the caseNot uncommonly worried thoughts as alway
My Heart Skipped A BeatEvery time I saw you,I couldn't help but stare.Your beautiful eyesMelted into mine,And they made my heart skip a beat.When you spoke,It was like time stopped,And everything stood stillExcept for you and me.I've never had a crush on someoneThat made me feel this way.Everything you did took my breath away.The sad part about all of this is you don't even know.You don't know that when you look at me,I fall that much harder.You have no idea that when you speak to me,You put butterflies in my stomach.Every time I saw you,I couldn't help but stare.You're beautiful eyesMelted into mine,And you made my heart s
A Solitary BeastI need to leaveBut can't get awayI need to get out But there's nowhere to goI can't contain him anymoreHe wants to get outThe beast inside meA beast with wingsA low guttural sound Escapes from my throatThere's no way to stop himNot this timePain courses through my veinsI fall to my kneesAnd arch my backMy bones begin to shiftScreams escape me Soon morphing into roars There is nothing left of meReplaced by wings and clawsI take flight into the skySetting fire to the nightNo longer part of the human worldI'm just a solitary beast
The PastI'm looking towards the past.Help me turn away.The memories are racing fast.I wish I didn't remember that day I'm searching harder for the past.To make old habits okay.Help me turn away.I'm slowly returning to that dayThey've made me forget.I'm looking towards the past.Help me turn away.The memories are racing fast.I wish I didn't remember that day I'm searching harder for the past.To make old habits okay.Help me turn away.I'm slowly returning to that dayWhen suicide was okay.And I held on in the back of my mindWithout even realizingAnd I can't hold my breath no longerNo matter how hard I tr
Anxiety Anxiety My heart drops straight down,my stomach goes cold.My brain is still processingwhat I've just been told.Worst case scenarios run through my head,What if you're hurt--Or what if you're dead?I call your cell phoneat least five times,I can't deal with this!And dead goes the line.I pace the floor faster,I walk all around.Tears fall from my eyes.And I drop to the ground.I can't deal with this..Just pick up the phone!I try one more time,and you answer, "Hello?"My grief turns to joy,then right into anger."I was worried, you idiot!Why wouldn't you answer?!"You're f
In The Dark, There Is Always LightThere are places so darkThat we can't seeThere are places so darkThat we feel lonelyThere are whispers in the darkThat makes our ears bleedThere are whispers in the darkThat makes us scaredAs the darkness surrounds usWe look for a lightAs the darkness embraces usWe start to fightWe don't want to live a lifeIn the darkWe don't want to live a lifeIn the shadowsAs we look for a source of lightWe realizeAs we look for a small hopeWe understandThere is always someone thereEven when it's darkThere is always someone thereWho will ignite your sparkYou're never aloneEven in the darkYou're never alone
Autumn WindsThe wind is dancing.The grass continues to grow.So please wipe your tears.
Lucifer's fallLook at yourself!!Look! You're the brightest star of them all.See,darling,you're the most beautiful one,But still,you chose to fall.Your wings shattered,And your soul went black,Did you ever regret it,my dear? You keep it silent,there's no way back.You left heaven behind you,Do you miss it? I know I do,I miss the innocence and the glitter,The sweetness of the clouds and the truth.I miss my wings,Yes,honey,I lost them too.See,when you fell,I jumped. I fell with you.I just wish you'd take me in your embrace,Hold me tight and never let me goYour sinful lips on mine,Send me the wind and I'll know.I can feel
*One Red Rose*Christmas snow so gently fallsWorld pure and silently whiteRed rose with tenacityUnfurled petals overnight.Christmas gift of one red roseHeaven's present this I knowBlossom glitters in cold gloryFrozen red in winter's snow.2012 Delice194116th December2012
After MathThis is the year of 0'sas I jump through hoopsand teach my body about rustic sicknessand send myself intothese colorful loops ofsenseless emotionand these days of 01'sI will pull my soul from my mouth,and stretch it until it screamsand I will cut it overthe sheet of paper that isthe cosmosfor the hours of 012will bleed into the temposof my life and maybeI will finally drown in itand learn my lessonfor everytime I kissat the wrong momentevery minute of 0123I look at you and see a child,picking his favorite memoriesfrom the tender tips ofhis sticky fingers andtrying his hardest to keep themtogetheryou and I count t
The SketchHe loses his first kiss in autumn. He's twelve, she's just turned thirteen, and at the time he isn't sure what all the fuss is about but knows how special it is anyway.She's gorgeous, pale-skin, brown hair, dark eyes always filled with happiness and joy the way he wishes he could be. She doesn't want to be there any more than he does, and they grouse to each other about how they don't need a 'special school.' It's the first time he's worked up the courage to say it.She carries a book too, just like his sketchbook, but she says it's a diary. It's hung with a little lock on the front and he jokes about it being the key to her heart, a littl
FirebreatherYou are not a man,neither god in deed.Born coldhearted beast,painfully, you bleed.Glows into your soul.Heats onto your tongue.Powers to your mind.Kills where you belong.Thrown away, you walk,sharpest of the mile.Under broken flag,written down: Exile.Man of nations, none,think where did you wrong.Which law disobeyed.None, you were too strong.Fallen the angel,up demon's the mask.Take what they live for,the senses don't ask.Be the storm they fear,upcoming weather.They will fear your name,the Firebreather.
Neon RainbowAfternoon, I sleep awoken,with a mess inside my mind.In a place i'll know forever,I will never leave behind.But then cobalts call me, sky.Life in blossom, firefly.A smile once appears in me,In rainbow palette,With a wondered look,a small sihouette.Happiness, a burst of sweetness, joy.Dash of love, and i am just a boy.A spectrum, imploding heart,there's no side to back.Just need breathe, and be alone,retrieve the attack.Beauty at day, shining arc.Fades out away, It's a dream.When it's not, during night.Raises upon neon beam.Now i am able to see.Not what is, but what will be.Dream. and never sleep,I
DivideThings haven't told you,things you're to know.things coming closer,I am to go.Thanks fore the smile,thanks for those days.Thank you, for never,the worst in your face.Sorry, never, will,tell you Goodbye.Sorry, in some time,for you i will die.The worst of all,you'll never see.How big the wound,has grown to be.You'll see a friend,who smiling stands.I'll see a start,that wrongly ends.I know all this story,I wrote it myself.I left it, forgotten,in sad-painted shelf.
Twenty OneAll my life has been a shuffe,cut it now, let's make a deal.For, my hands can't keep on playing,to this end is all i feel.What you have to keep ongoing?Tel me stranger, times of last.But, I'm suited man of business,both our times you follow fast.'Do you know about my story?'Asked the soldier, breathing air.Shady stranger with no answer,'Better now, we'll play it fair'First of all, the lose of loved one,Times of that, I wasn't. Gone.Lonely wounded walking stranger.Ace of Hearts, I am alone.Long before i fell for pardon,Banner-figter, proudly chose.Now, the ghosts of my ambition;Diamond Ace, my thorning ros